Hi dear non-readers. So, what’s been happening to me of late? Suck. That’s what
s been happening. Plain old suck.
Let’s see. Mid October, I get the flu. Or whatever I though was the flu. Took a monday off, then went back Tuesday. And had to be taken to the hospital in an ambulance. My blood sugar was all kinds of low and they couldn’t get it to stay up. That’s the first accusation of Munchausen. I was accused of taking insulin to make my blood sugar low. For shits and giggles I suppose. Feeling like you’re going to throw up and pass out and flop on the floor like a fish out of water. Fun times – I sign up for those as often as I can. No, asshole nurse, I didn’t do it to myself.
I get admitted with undiagnosed problems, one of them being sepsis. That = infection in the bloodstream. Like, when you have an infection that gets so bad it gets into the bloodstream. Apparently my white blood cell count was more than 3 times the normal amount. I get loads of fluids because I’m anemic, and finally get my gallbladder removed. I had multiple stones and other ickiness. And great flying spaghetti monster, the pain after surgery. I had one of those pumps that you push the button for painkillers every 7 minutes and I hurt too bad to use it. I had to go back to a smaller amount every four hours. Stupid pain, I don’t like you.
I was discharged two days later. Went hom in some serious pain. I went to my pain management dr two days later and had my already huge doses of painkillers increased. That was a Tuesday. That week I was so sick I could hardly get out of bed, even to pee. The following Monday I had an appointment with the surgeon. At that point, I hadn’t pooped in 14 days. Despite many, uh, attempts to get me to go. Then I had a poo that was white. WHITE! And, uh, fluffy. I don’t know…it didn’t look like it should have come from my ass. I was also running a high fever and had an infection. I was sent back to the hospital. Which was a fiasco that I won’t even go into here. After many hours of waiting, I finally was sent to the ER with tests done. Another infection, this time a UTI (they say) and anemia. Which, you know, is concern since I just had surgery. Even though it was a laproscopic surgery. I shouldn’t have lost much, if any, blood. My Hemoglobin was 9.4. Normal for a woman my age should be between 11 – 16.
After two days in the hospital, the hospitalist doctor said that there was nothing medically wrong with me besides being morbidly obese and needing psychiatric care because I’m making all these symptoms up. I guess so I can get IV painkillers and nausea meds. Because even though the hospital meds are weaker than what I take at home, apparently I like it better. Whatever. So I left. That was the second nod towards Munchausen…that I was just making up illnesses to get drugs, surgery, testing.
On Friday I woke up around 5am puking what smelled of poo. And had the color of poo. And since I hadn’t eaten much and only pooped once in three weeks…chances were good that there was a blockage – a bowel obstruction. And perhaps a bile duct obstruction or leak even. Back in the hospital per my surgeons orders. I had to go through the ER and the staff refused to page my surgeon as he had suggested. Not until the next day did he get notified. Well, anyway…there was the nonstop puking. Oh, and my blood count had gone down to 8.2….indicating a bleed somewhere. The next morning, when asshole doctor came to see me, I asked if it was my fat ass that made me lose such a significant amount of blood in two days, or what that all in my head. After some back and forth banter, I apparently was looking at him with a raised eyebrow. And, no lie, the doctor said “If you’re going to make faces like that at me, perhaps you should find another doctor.” Uh….the fuck? The thing was, I had been trying to find another doctor. It’s not so easy. Luckily the surgeon and GI doctor understood my loathing at the hospitalist and basically took him off my case – I didn’t see him anymore.
Many, many tests later it was determined that I had gastric paresis. Which basically means that when I eat, it takes two or three times longer for me to process it through my stomach before it even starts to be digested. And this is what supposed to be causing the unbearable pain and constant nausea. Who knows. All I can say is that during the last month I’ve lost about 30 pounds. Which is a lot, really. Even if I am a fat chick…it’s not normal to lose that much, that quickly.
So, I get out. I have two weeks before I see my doctor. There’s this big waiting thing going on with work. As in, nobody will talk to me about it. Meanwhile, disability insurance hasn’t kicked in. They say they’re having problems getting ahold of my doctor. So I haven’t been paid since the beginning of October. As you might imagine, this is taking a toll of my financially.
Something bad happened last week….but I don’t remember. Then this past Monday, I got fired. For being sick. Because they couldn’t accommodate me being sick. Even though I hadn’t asked to go to the hospital in the first place, my boss made me Whatever.
In response to being fired, I took a few too many Xanax and wound up in a mental ward in a hospital for three days. Fun times. I slept through pretty much everything except meal times, med times and doctor times. I didn’t do “group” therapy and the like. Oh well.
I had a meeting with social worker and my mom Tuesday. Since I was getting out the next day I gave her my clothes and such, keeping just my purse. She brought it home and left it in my car. Well, my car was burgled again last night. They took my cute pink Puma bag with clothes….including new undies and jammies that my aut gave me. I have no clue what else was taken from me, what else was in the bag. They also went through my glove compartment and console were ransacked…all change and the couple of dollars I had hidden are gone. Seriously, what assholes?
Now my car battery is dead. I’m not sure if the burglar left the dome light on or if my mom did…now I have to get the brand new battery.
Oh, and last week? My already crappy tooth broke in half. It hurts and is all sharp and sad. I need to find a dentist that accepts my insurance and will let me pay in a
What stupidness.
